Society has conditioned us very early on to be content being everyone but ourselves. Our true selves. In one way or another media reminds us that who we are & who we want to be is not enough. Unless, of course, it fits their idea of perfection or success. In many direct & indirect ways, we are told how to dress, how to talk, who to love, how to love, what to like, what to dislike, what is important, what to dismiss & what we should do based on what society thinks is important. This has resulted in so many of us unsure of who we are, what we believe in & what we represent. Well today, I encourage you to start the journey in learning exactly who you are, what you stand for & what is important to you because despite what you are conditioned to believe –there is not one single person that is on this earth just like you. You were made special, as one of a kind, limited edition — that is the beauty that is you.
The most beautiful thing I have ever witnessed is a person who found true, genuine joy because they were willing to be rebellious for the sake of discovering themselves. They live in joy because they outgrew society’s standards & are living outside of such restrictions. So many of us are walking around with a mask that perpetrates us in a different way than who we really are. This is dangerous to our self-care because we are too busy living for the likes of someone else– so much so, that we forget who we are & dislike ourselves in the process. To be ourselves unapologetically is the best gift we could ever give ourselves & to the world. We spend so much time of our lives being loyal to other people & we do not realize that being loyal to ourselves & our identities is even more important.
Remaining yourself, regardless of the circumstances you face, is a miraculous talent to have. Even under the worst situations you still remain true- true to you. That is the quality to having a good life that will impact, not only yours, but the lives of others. Like I said, there is no one like you, once you are gone there will never be another you. There is no one better at being you than you — embrace you. That is the least that you can do for yourself. Be you, always, all the time, regardless– Forever.
I usually struggle to write about topics like this out of concern of appearing bitter, irrational or unrealistic. Anyone that knows me, knows I have been through my share of heartbreak; some more crippling than others. However, the truth is, people (notice I said ‘people’) need to hear this. On a regular basis people are living tied to toxic, dysfunctional & unhappy relationships. They find themselves lost in the antics & associate with insecurity, discomfort, uncertainty & defeat. So, today, regardless of my own reservations it will be said. Despite what people think, this situation is beyond one individual person, as there are people that need empowerment before & after leaving relationships that no longer suit them.
I will be the first one to tell you that I have walked away from relationships still in love. I will also tell you that regardless of how visibly stubborn I have been; internally I struggled with whether or not I made the right decision to preserve myself & walk away. Truth is, I wanted so badly to believe that someone can change & that under the right circumstances they can change because of me. Too often, afterwards, I ended up raising an amazing man for someone else to enjoy. This often left me disappointed, heartbroken, angry & remorseful for the time I invested & lost. My story is not one of its own. In talking to other people, circumstances may differ but the situation is very much the same. So this memoir is for the person having a hard time getting away. For the person who looks at their partner & wonders what happened & who looks in the mirror & is unsure of themselves. This memoir is for you— because, I have been there too.
I will not tell you why you should get away because realistically, we leave when we are good & ready to. All situations are not just cut & dry. Some situations are more complicated. However, what I will tell you is this– you are not stupid for staying. You are not a fool for forgiving. You should not be ashamed for being hopeful things will get better. Instead if you do not understand or believe anything again in your life– resonate with this– you are powerful, mighty, worthy, beautiful, a gift & a blessing. Anyone who takes that for granted is unworthy of you. You are deserving, you are admirable, you are amazing, you are smart & you are blessed. Anyone willing to risk that does not deserve you. You are breathtaking, you are creative, you are endearing & you are phenomenal. Anyone who can not see that has already lost you. You are strong, you are smart & courageous. If YOU cannot see that, you have already sold yourself short.
See, you are a gem to be loved & cherished. Sadly, we do not always find ourselves tied to people who understand that, however, that still does not negate our worth. You are loved & cherished by the most high. You are loved beyond compare & there will never be anyone to grace this earth like you. You are you, miraculously & wonderfully, you. No one can ever take that from you. With each passing obstacle you become more resilient, more notorious & more victorious. Please believe the words as I wrote them. I do not have to meet you to tell you. I was you. I have been there. We are cut from the same cloth. Drape yourself in pride & confidence, love. The rest will follow. As I always say, you are deserving of all that is coming for you. It is yours & yours alone.
Until next time.
Happy New Year Conglomerates! Writing for you, loving into you & encouraging you has been a fun & empowering journey. I am so grateful you have been with me & I pray that I can continue to empower you one year at a time. I can not express my gratitude in words, but I thank you from the depth of my heart for joining me & sticking with me.
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We hear often that life is all about taking risks. If we fail to take risks than we fail to truly live. However true that may be, I for one like to play most things safe. I am a very consistent person & any changes too far off from the grid make me uncomfortable. It is interesting because regardless of how extreme in nature I may be, risks & I usually do not come hand-in-hand. However, it was not until the last year or so (2017-2018), that I learned the importance of taking chances on myself, even if the risk does not initially make sense.
For the most part, I did things the way it was expected I should have. I graduated high school, went to college, excelled, had enough graduations for a lifetime & always had a job to make ends meet; whether I was happily employed or not. So, one can only imagine my discomfort when I decided to leave my well paying job with awesome benefits, & an amazing schedule for a job that imposed a $5,000 pay cut & a commitment of more days (possibly long hours) all for the sake of experience. I struggled often with the decision & spent the first 5-6 months of my employment concerned that the risk I took was in vain. Well today, I tell you that taking the risk was one of the greatest things I could have ever done for myself. Exactly one year later, I was promoted to a position that affords me peace of mind, given a salary that surpasses what I left & opens me up to so many opportunities that will elevate my career.
So please listen when I tell you, risks are a necessary part of life. Risks showcase the magnitude of your faith & is an unexpected, yet empowering example of self-care. All risks do not make sense & they often are not suppose to, but if you can envision the road in the long run than it is likely worth taking the chance. From my experience, what you envision does not even scratch the surface of what God has in store for you. Sometimes it simply takes a small leap of faith & a whole lot of courage. Every week, I take a risk when I send out a memoir for public review & scrutiny — leaving myself exposed to unwarranted comments, grammar & spelling corrections & recommendations on how “said memoir” could have been better. However, the good far outweighs the tedious & elevates my heart from the fruits of my labor. But I would never recognize this if I was not willing to take the risk each & every week by making myself vulnerable & accountable for the chances I am willing to make.
Do not place limitations on yourself out of concern that a risk will not work out in your favor. There is always a way out of no way & you are worth the investment you put into yourself. Life has many lessons to share with you & it is not limited to negative experiences. There is magic in keeping a little faith & treasure hidden in your risks. Claim it & I can promise you that what you risked will be small in comparison to what awaits you. To obtain our hearts desire it requires a willingness to stand firm in what we believe in & a high jump for the opportunity. Life is way too short to have to sit around & wonder “what if”. “What if” is beneath you.
“Take the risk or lose the chance”
– Fritz Chery
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