God has a special way of making it very clear that every one of my experiences serves to be a lesson. As I continue to experience new things as a single woman & adult; I realize that life is a revolving door that keeps me guessing & having to re-adjust. Depending on the kind of student I am, these lesson are either, painful, eye-opening or humbling but a lesson is always learned.
Currently, my experiences have been uncomfortable & humbling but necessary all the same. As someone who’s life purpose is to be a blessing to others; I learned that just as I bless others I MUST be willing to accept when others bless me. I have been doing a lot of self reflection & since I am incapable to do the things I use to do for people; I am realizing that I struggle with accepting the same treatment from other people. Therefore, out of discomfort, I often reject the blessing their affording me. I stubbornly choose to suffer unnecessarily because I struggle with accepting things that people genuinely offer me from the kindness of their hearts.
Now that my situation has changed, I am humbly reminded that what you put out into the world will come back to you. Life is a journey & in that journey I may not always be on top, I may not always be the giver; sometimes I will need to be the receiver. Just as I have poured into others, God will ensure that others will pour into me. When I reject the blessings he’s made a way for I tell God that I’ll find another way aside from the way he has set aside specifically for me. I am working on that. It has been a long journey but I am grateful that I am learning this lesson & that things have been aligned to help me through my difficult times.
I write this memoir to share this message with you. I know many women who struggle accepting from others; unsure of what’s needed in return or out of fear of being disappointed. But today I tell you, YOU are deserving of the assistance you give other people, you are worthy to be blessed & it’s ok to pray for a solution, be provided a solution & accept it when it’s provided. You cannot always do it alone. Take it with gratitude (whatever it may be) & pay it forward when you can. Rejecting a blessing can be the rejection of the very thing that may turn your situation around. Accepting does not change who you are or your ability to deliver on your own; it just allows for someone else to be blessed for blessing you while helping you in the process. A blessing is God’s favor & protection over you & your life.