Life has a funny way of making us grow in the midst of our discomfort. Despite the various ways in which I experienced this; 2020 has had a special way of confirming this. Granted, in spite of all the chaos, God has blessed me immensely. However, I can recognize the various, uncomfortable experiences that served to be learning opportunities that contributed to making me more resilient.
I know things have been significantly difficult this year. There is one obstacle after another & very little time to recover. But this year has taught me something significant about human-beings; we are survivors. We survive, keep surviving & then we thrive. We have a natural instinct to keep fighting even when the odds are against us.
Love, I may not know exactly what you are experiencing right now. But I do know that this message is for you. Sometimes we need things to occur by happenstance to motivate us to move forward. Understand that you reading this memoir today is not a coincidence. It was meant for you.
It is no surprise that things have been quite difficult lately. All the external factors, coupled with managing every facet of your life, is adding significant & unwanted stress to your already hectic life. Whatever the circumstance, you will get through this. Throughout your life you have overcome setbacks & loses; this is no different. You have lived & survived while managing the various roles & maintaining a life you have set out for yourself. In all the chaos, you have become multifaceted; a forced to be reckoned with. Take the time you need- reflect & readjust. Believe that what you want is yours. It is all apart of God’s divine plan. Trust the process. The journey will get you to where you are supposed to be. But I can assure you, a loss is not waiting for you at the finish line.
Good morning! Today is a new day & we are able to start the new week with a new perspective. If yesterday’s election results showed us anything, it showed us that the numbers matter. When people come together fueled by a passion to contribute to change, we can shift the trajectory of outcomes! But this is something, unfortunately, we already knew– we just fail to practice it as often as we can. Furthermore, there is now clear representation set before us! As women, mothers, daughters, sisters & minority women; there is someone that looks like us bypassing restrictions & showing us what is possible.
Now little girl’s know that becoming a person of power in a world not necessarily made for them, is a very real possibility. Their ability to shatter glass ceilings is something all of them will be able to do. They no longer have to accept the narrative someone else has written out for them. Why? Because something amazing happened. Our little girl’s can look at Kamala, & even if they don’t get it now, see that she is them. They can set new standards, & be the first, all & everything because of the representation set before them. I can not even begin to express how important that is.
We all grew up hearing what we could not do because we were “girls”. Whether it was playing with the boys or expressing ourselves in attire- it was all based on what someone decided we should do because of our gender. Our career decisions were guided by those who love us in ways that ensured we remained lady-like. However, for whatever reason, jobs that afforded us too much power, was outside of a woman’s place. Now people’s outdated standards for the lives of women, will no longer have the ability to take precedence. Have the conversation with your little one’s. Use the opportunity to empower your little girls to go for it & talk to your little boys so they are never the reason little girls have to fight harder for the spots they have earned.
Let what happened yesterday begin to change the narrative– forevermore.
In life we will go through various circumstances that require deep reflection but provide the same epiphany. Despite the unfavorable situations I may have experienced, a person’s sentiments or motivations behind what they have done is none of my freakin’ business.
I had to force myself to understand that what a person does, how they choose to live their lives, or treat others has nothing to do with me but everything to do with them. Unfortunately, I just got caught in the crossfire of whatever turbulent &/or toxic life experience they subjected themselves to. Alas, many people only know how to communication with toxicity. But again, that is not my fault or the fault of anyone else but that person. My only job is to ensure that I do not give it forward but ensure that light is what people encounter when they have an encounter with me.
So today, I ask you to let the burden go. Stop wondering what if. Stop wondering what you could have done to make the situation better. Stop putting their BS on your plate to swallow. Trust me, they will have to deal with the consequences of their actions without you even having to interfere. God is not about to play about his so let him do what he promised he will do & work on healing.
Healing is yours. Do not give anyone the luxury of keeping that from you.
Here’s food for thought, everyone does not have the same intention, spirit or heart as you do. We see the signs, ignore them & attempt to provide justification to why our spirit (intuition) is in dismay. But the truth is, sometimes there does not need to be justification. Sometimes, people’s spirit simply does not align with ours & it is best to handle that person or situation accordingly.
Many of us assume that the people we interact with have the same heart as we do, that they mean well, & their intentions are pure. However, I am sure many of us can attest, after many heartbreaks & disappointments — that couldn’t be further than the truth. We have an innate instinct rooted in us to protect ourselves. We have been blessed with the ability to discern when something is not good for us. However, more often than not, we choose what we want to see over how someone or something is making us feel. That is when we fail ourselves & leave ourselves susceptible to mistreatment, disappointment, discouragement, distrust & emotional anguish.
I have become familiar with the practice of accepting what & how I feel without needing rationalization as to why I feel that way. Because of that, I am able to reflect & acknowledge that when I listened to that feeling, I was always better off. However, when I didn’t, there was hell to pay & the recovery was painful. Therefore, I encourage you today to avoid the unnecessary by listening & trusting your instinct. We were created to preserve ourselves & take heed to the people & things that may not have the intention we hope for.
If you feel uneasy, accept & acknowledge that. If that guy makes you anxious; take it serious. You are not anxious for no reason. If you have a hard time believing what is coming out of someone’s mouth (without proof) believe what you feel. If someone’s actions say one thing but you feel something else, take heed. The world is too short to ignore the signs. Your discomfort is the sign. If you cannot pinpoint the problem but you know there is one, that is sufficient justification. We spend so much time giving everyone the benefit of the doubt, that we do not give ourselves the same benefit. Don’t allow your mistrust in other people or things, keep you from trusting yourself. You are in this for your own self interest, your own preservation & your own deliverance. Regardless of what happens, all you have is you.
For the past few months, I have been extremely hard on myself trying to keep off the “quarantine-15” I gained a few months back. Though the progress is evident in the stats, the fact that I can’t “see” the results have caused me to lose patience & not appreciate what has been accomplished thus far. My inability to enjoy the process has caused me to be a little less than kind to myself. However, my perspective changed significantly, when I was hit with a stomach bug & had to marvel at the process my body takes to bounce back.
I actually found myself apologizing to my mind & body for not accepting what it does every day to keep me alive & in good health. I wake up every day with a sound mind, a joyful spirit & a body that pumps healthy blood through me every day. Although, it may take longer for me to physically get the results I want; underneath it all my body is working.
But the truth of the matter is- we are all guilty of this & we all owe ourselves an apology.
Too often we fail to love ourselves the way we need to. We are so much more forgiving to other people than we are to ourselves. We push ourselves to unreasonable limits under the context that we need to work harder. We maintain very abuse relationships with ourselves (physically, spiritually, mentally) & then we fix our mouths to call it “self-care”. We allow negative thoughts to invade our minds & then tell ourselves we are not doing enough. Our body tells us to rest & we still overbook ourselves & say that we are being a good friend, sister & lover. We are there for everyone but ourselves.
But what we need most, is to consistently be a good steward to ourselves. Self care does not only entail taking a bubble bath & drinking wine on a Sunday night. In fact it has everything to do with how we treat ourselves, how we talk to ourselves, how we set boundaries (even for ourselves), how we put time aside to rest & how we pay attention when any aspect of our body speaks to us.
We grew up in a society that presumes that the millennial generation has no true understanding of life & what to expect. For years, generations before us have attempted to dictate what success, relationships & family life should look like for us. However, when we refused to conform to that image, we lacked drive. But the truth is, we saw how life works & we concluded that life does not necessarily deal fair cards & we did something about it.
Instead of allowing the system to dictate our value, we let our creativeness take precedence. Entrepreneurs is an understatement with the talents & standards we have begun to unlock & monetize from. However, those who do not get it, will never understand why we find it ok to do things our way. As women, we have decided that our family can constitute our friends without having to marry & have children; if we do not want to. We set standards in our romantic relationships that those before us may not have had the confidence to set. We decided that we can have our own businesses doing things that generations before us did for free. We have learned to make social media work for us & have ran down the walls of universities grabbing degrees & opportunities that were withheld from those before us.
We are making it known, what worked for our parents is not the only way to ensure life works for us. Despite what many people think, we have drive. It just may not look like anyone else’s. Instead of settling, we have decided we want it all & we are coming for it. That is not an unrealistic expectation. It is an understanding that life is not limited & we can get it all with strategic planning. Most importantly, we can have fun doing it. However, just as a path was paved for us, we have created a platform for those after us.
So if you’re millennial reading this, keep those creative juices flowing & set the standards for what you want life to look like. Ignore the noise. Do life your way.
After all, it SHOULD be done your way. It is your life to begin with.
In a society that promotes competitiveness it should not be a surprise that more people are becoming information hoarders. Many people have opted to withhold information out of fear of losing out on an opportunity. But as we all know, what is for us will not miss us. Therefore, there is no significant reason to withold information that can be significantly beneficial to someone else.
Despite what many people believe, the idea of being fruitful does not only relate to bearing children; it’s one’s willingness to sow & grow fruits (what we have to offer) into the the earth. Your fruits are what makes the world go ’round & establishes your legacy. There are too many people starting new endeavors alone while many people have access to the resources that can make their process significantly easier.
We should be more willing to share the information we have obtained than chastise someone for asking. Any milestone that helps another person reach their goal sooner is a victory for us. Life is too short to contribute to making someone’s life more cumbersome. Use your experiences to flip their circumstances around & you will be blessed for it. Life is about making the journey shorter & more enjoyable.
Today’s memoir is a gentle reminder to be a good person. A genuinely good person that brings light to the lives of others. So many of us are not realistic about the kind of people we are & the type of people we associate with. Being a good person is more than doing nice things for people, it also stands on intent. Never forget that.
Twenty-Twenty has been a rough year with pandemics, civil rights movements, deaths & shenanigans associated with re-election. It is in these times that we have had to show people who was say we are & rise to the occassion. We do not have to get it right all the time but it is on us to try. How you make people feel & what you do to get ahead, matters! The intent behind it, matters. The consequences of what you do (good or bad) causes a ripple effect for the energy that is put out into the world.
Ensure that your energy is good.
Social media has cultivated a passive aggressive society that thrives off of competition, jealousy & negativity. Once we get caught up in that we begin losing any good qualities that make us uniquely, amazingly & beautifully us. Anything this earth has to offer should never jeopardize that. It should never cause us to sacrifice our inate instincts to be good. This life will pass on, however so, the impression you leave behind is the narrative of your life. You decide.